Lighthouse Keeper

Keeping the lights on to guide you home

  • So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God (1 Corinthians 10:31)

    One of the main challenges of the Christian life is the constant draw into church life or ministry or whatever you choose to call it. There is an assumption that “church work” or “church activities” are somehow superior to everyday life. 

    I constantly get asked by people why I’m not in full time ministry and the simple answer is “because God wants me out and about”. I see Christians getting around in little “saint’s clubs” who don’t have any interaction with non-Christian folk from work to school and social activities. 

    I was talking to a church person the other day who was having relational issues in a church environment. I said to them:

    “Go and join the gardening club–you’re getting too church-y”. 

    It wasn’t that well received but I really meant it. We are called to “let our light shine before men” (Matthew 5:16) and that’s all men (and women), not just the ones who profess Jesus. Echo chambers have destroyed our news media and information online and they can destroy our lives as witnesses as well. If you can’t be a Christian at the garden club, then perhaps your faith needs re-assessment. 

    Please don’t think that being asked into church leadership or pastor roles or what I call “Christian-flavoured things”...is somehow superior. The apostle Paul is very clear that everything we do is unto the Lord. I can listen to Christian worship music on my daily river walks or I can listen to drum and bass music and all can be unto the Lord. There is no secular and sacred.

    Now where people get tangled up is in Old Testament theology about holy objects and holy things. (Leviticus 20:7). We are to be set apart to be holy. In the New Testament, we are made holy and clean by the blood of Jesus so have the freedom to approach the throne of grace with confidence (Hebrews 4:16). Being set apart is a position that you take as an image-bearer of Jesus and is not a call to be cloistered necessarily (I say necessarily because I love reading about the old monks and I have no doubt they were called by God into their fields) but my point is, you can give God glory in your everyday life without having to put on a cassock. 

    Cleaning your house is worship. 

    Bathing your kids is worship.

    Sorting out your finances is worship. 

    Going for a coffee with friends is worship

    “Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.” (Romans 12:1).  Yes your body at church but also your body at home or in the car or at the supermarket. Your everyday being human.

    Do everything “unto the Lord” and you will find this worship is very pleasing and acceptable to God.

  • For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry (Habakkuk 2:3 NKJV).

    For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hurries toward the goal and it will not fail. Though it delays, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay long (Habakkuk 2:3 NASB).

    I was at the supermarket this morning and two little girls saw some ice creams in the freezer. They were the fruity ones that went viral on Tik Tok with the little plastic case called Fruitae. 

    “Mum, can we have one of those ice creams!?”

    Both girls were super excited and jumping up and down pleading with their Mum to buy them one of the popular ice creams. 

    I looked at their Mum. She didn’t say no. She could see that the Fruitae ice creams delighted her daughters so you know what she said?

    “Yes… but you can’t have it now.”

    It was nine o’clock in the morning and they’d probably just had breakfast. They didn’t need a sugary treat now. But she wanted to treat them so bought them for later. 

    God does this for us all the time. He knows what we need and when we need it. His timing is perfect and often we want a quick answer and He has already given his Yes and Amen (2 Corinthians 1:20) but we just can’t see it. He is withholding a blessing because of HIs goodness and desire to delight us. Not to be cruel or hard hearted. 

    When you go into the prayer closet, be confident that the Father has heard your prayer and answered in the best way and in the best timing. 

    Though it tarries, wait for it. Because it will surely come

    To ‘tarry’ means to wait like lingering at someone’s house after dinner or to stay longer than intended. Not rushing off. A delay. When the timing is right, it will not tarry and you will get your answered prayer. God’s delay is not God’s denial.

  • The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. (Psalm 37:23 NLT)

    When I first became a Christian at 23 years old, I was terrified of the call of God. I have a degree in Mandarin Chinese and I was certain that God was going to call me to be a missionary in China. I liked my life working in sales for an ice cream brand and my company car and my sunny rented unit.

    Thankfully, God is kind and loving and knows that’s not for me. Many times I have made dramatic displays of my commitment to the Lord and offered my life on the altar. These often happen in the middle of blessing when I’m sure the grace will run out because my life is so good. They have also come at times when I’ve been completely lost in a storm and had no idea what’s next. The voice of God usually answers the same way:

    “Stand”. (Daniel 10:11)

    You’re exactly where you need to be. I see you. I’m in control. I’m ordering your steps. (Psalm 37:23). 

    Sometimes we can fall in love with the idea of looking at other saints and thinking our lives have to be like theirs. Looking at Smith Wigglesworth or the Apostle Paul or Thomas Merton or Moses can lead us to start designing a ministry that we think will please God. It’s not bad (we’ve all done it), but as Christian life goes on I’ve always been shocked at just how fitting and perfect my life is when I stop to smell the roses. The anxiety comes when we get “works” focused and think we need to do great things for God. He’s already done the greatest thing for us on the Cross and there’s no need to try and impress Him with your servitude and dedication. God sees your heart and religious displays often morph into false humility and trying to force the hand of God because you’re not sure what’s going on or you’re bored and seeking a Damascus Road (Acts 9) encounter. God is no roller coaster. Walk simply with Him day-by-day and you’ll experience the communion of intimacy with the Holy Spirit. 

    God knows you better than you know yourself. He knows the future and the road ahead. He sees you. He’s good.

  • The mind of man plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps (Proverbs 16:9 NASB)

    I was visiting a little church once. One enthusiastic greeter launched at me and said, 

    “I haven’t seen you before, tell me about your God Goals!”

    I reeled in horror at the suggestion before mumbling something about “walking humbly with my God” (Micah 6:8) and making myself scarce round the back of the kitchen. 

    One of the things I’m big on in my Christian walk is surrender. Daily surrender. Jesus in Gethsemane surrendered. (Luke 22:42). So the notion that I can put together a brightly coloured spreadsheet and God would magically endorse it doesn’t really sit right with me. It all seems very Tony Robbins, American pop-psychology so I tend to steer away from all that. 

    Then one day, I was watching tennis and saw an interview with Coco Gauff. She was talking about how she had some five-year goals “in the Notes app in my iPhone and I just remind myself of those”. I was so cool and millennial and simple that the concept appealed to me. So I opened the Notes app on my iPhone and rambled out a list. 

    That was on 26 May 2024 and has formed the five year plan that I refer to every now and again for my life. It’s very high level. There’s no coloured spread sheets or Gantt charts, just a list of stuff I want my life to be about. And did I bring this before the Lord? Yes indeed. Can God change any of these around in His perfect and pleasing sovereign Will (Romans 12:2)? Yes indeed. It forms more of a memorial stone (Joshua 4) and a place of thanksgiving for me to see all the wonderful things God had led me to and through. 

    I’ll give you some examples:

    -Go on more adventures

    -Do not fear the future (Proverbs 31)

    -Live on God’s daily bread (Matthew 6:11)

    -Love and support my inner child

    -Live in peace and prosperity (Zephaniah 3:20)

    What really surprised me when I prayed through them last night for New Year’s eve 2025 was how little of it needed editing. 

    The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. (Proverbs 16:9). It’s a bit like prayer, ask, seek, knock (Matthew 7) but at the end of the day, God will have the final say (and the better say). 

    If you’re a bit cynical like me about “God Goals” I suggest you try the simple, Coco Gauff method and scribble down some ideas about what you want your life to be about. This can also include things you don’t want for your life. For example, I have “don’t chase people and things”. 

    These little nudges on the narrow road will make you feel good about your progress and keep you from stumbling. You can also screenshot some Bible verses and promises the Lord has revealed to you and attach it in the Notes app. 

    Happy New Year to you all. May you go on some great adventures with and for God. 

  • Through the tender mercy of our God,

    With which the Dayspring from on high has visited us; (Luke 1:78 NKJV)

    I thought I knew what ‘dayspring” meant –like a fountain of water or a spring from the ground. Upon further investigation, it turns out I was totally wrong. 

    Meanings of “Dayspring”

    Biblical/Archaic: Means “dawn” or “rising sun” (Greek: anatole).

    Job 38:12 (KJV): “Hast thou commanded the morning since thy days; and caused the dayspring to know his place? Luke 1:78 (KJV): “The dayspring from on high hath visited us,” referring to Jesus as the Messiah.

    So it’s a “light” thing and not a “water” thing as I thought. A new day or new dawn is a really nice thing to think about around Christmas time and echoes the prophetic text of Isaiah 9 which of course refers to the birth of Jesus:

    3 The people who walked in darkness
    have seen a great light;
    those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness,
    on them has light shone. (Isaiah 9:2 ESV)

    There’s a lot of “light” imagery and metaphor used around Jesus and I could be here forever giving examples but I read a lovely psalm this morning: Psalm 36:9 NKJV

    For with You is the fountain of life; In Your light we see light.

    I just went to the supermarket at 8am to get my last supplies for Christmas Day. We are having a small one at home this year but I forgot to buy treats for Gracie (bad cat mother) and I needed a fresh sponge cake for the trifle. There were queues down the checkout aisles already, the carpark was full and we were all grabbing at stuff on the shelves; jostling past the other shoppers. 

    When I worked in head office communications for a supermarket chain, the national operations manager used to come and give us a pep talk around the busiest trading days of the year (Christmas Eve being number one). 

    “Santa comes at the same time every year so we shouldn’t be caught off guard. December 25. It’s the same date every year.”

    He’s right. And it’s the same in the Bible. We know the day is coming. We can read the hundreds of prophecies of Messiah and his birth and still we get caught napping. It’s a new day. The Dayspring and the history of the world and what it means to be human, all these things have changed because of what happened at Christmas. The Light became flesh and dwelt among us (John 1:14) It’s extraordinary. The Dawn arrived and now in His light we know how to live and how to follow the narrow path Home. 

    I hope you can take some time this Christmas to read some of the Christmas accounts for yourself (Matthew 1-2, Luke 1-2) and maybe some beautiful prophecies like the one in Isaiah 9. The Day Spring has come, and it can be a new day for you too if you choose to follow Jesus. 

    Merry Christmas, enjoy whatever your day looks like and reach for a Bible in the chaos and sit with Him who we are celebrating. 

  • Yet it was the LORD’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the LORD makes his life an offering for sin, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand (Isaiah 53:10)

    That I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, Philippians 3:10 ESV

    There’s a lot I love about Pastor Bill Johnson but his theology on suffering is not one of those things. 

    The problem with deliverance ministry (name the bad spirit, cast it out) is that it places a lot of emphasis on the humans and not much on God. People in the church start saying woo woo stuff like “I wonder if that person has unconfessed sin” or “that person is under a generational curse”. This type of thinking absolves the other people in the church from making casseroles and walking alongside someone with addiction, mental health issues, or a busted human body part. 

    So what’s my theology on suffering? Let me share a little testimony:

    This day 11 years ago on 11 December 2014, my whole life changed. 

    I was in Sydney interviewing for jobs so had time to go to the Hillsong women’s ministry (Sisterhood) in Danks Street. I got there early and sat in the cafe across the road reading the last chapters of the Book of Job. When nobody much turned up I went to the office and they told me the meeting was wound down for the Christmas season. I had time to spare so, even though it was drizzling rain, I walked back along Bourke Street towards Sydney Central train station. 

    Twenty minutes later I was struck by a crashing taxi on the footpath and forced through a brick wall as my trapped left leg took the full force of the car bonnet.  I lay squashed on the busy pavement in the rain as a crowd gathered to take photos of me (it was two minutes walk from the NewsCorp head offices so all the journalists came out) and reassure me that the ambulance was on the way. The paramedics arrived and started singing Miley Cyrus “Wrecking Ball” to me as I’d just been put through a brick wall.

    The more serious lead paramedic said “We didn’t expect to see you alive let alone conscious…. I always put a body bag on board when I hear it’s a car versus pedestrian”.  I knew my leg and ankle were broken and my great fear was a broken back. They put me on a Pat-slide with a plastic collar and ran spinal checks before lifting me into the ambulance. My toes could wiggle. A good sign.  The attendants cut off my jeans and the serious lead man said he was going to run a line of morphine into my arm. A Christian (assuming Catholic) crucifix hung around his neck and dangled in my face. I asked him if he was Christian. He said “yes I am”. 

    The ambulance took me to St Vincent’s hospital in King’s Cross. Famous in Australia for its emergency department I was blessed to only be 10 minutes from care. 

    As I lay in the ED waiting to go in for an X-ray I could feel my mind collapsing. I had my whole life planned out with spread sheets and budgets and five year goals and apartments to live in. Going on a Book of Job journey down the path of suffering was not on my “To-Do” list. 

    I’ll fast forward through the details but years of recovery followed. A knee to ankle titanium tibial nail was put in my leg and screws in my ankle. The impact of the taxi had caused a huge hematoma on the front of my leg and so all the skin had to be cut off because it was dead. Weeks of skin grafts, orthopaedics, physio, nurse visits for bandages. And then I had to learn to walk on-and eventually off-crutches. I had five surgeries on my leg in total. 

    St Vincent’s hospital was founded by Catholic nuns and crucifixes hung all around the walls of the wards. 

    So back to my theology on suffering. Job suffered. God is sovereign and good and Job still suffered. Paul suffered. The saints all suffered. Joseph suffered. Elijah suffered. But most importantly…

    Jesus suffered. 

    To swerve suffering is to swerve the path of Christ. Many do and I can almost tell within five minutes whether someone has looked their mortality in the face and realised how fragile and vulnerable we are as human beings. What is my theology on suffering? The crucifix.

    Today, I just went for a one hour walk around the river to celebrate my still-attached (there was a 50% chance of amputation) leg and give thanks to God for all the people who were the hands and feet of Jesus to me when I needed it. Most importantly, I had my NIV Bible with me when I was hit and managed to keep it with me through all the surgeries and ward changes. Reading those Scriptures strengthened me and kept me centred as I knew that Jesus was there with me in my suffering. I have huge scars and chunks of leg missing but no limp and I can get around pretty good. I was reluctant to write about this on the anniversary but if you are suffering today, know that He is with you. It’s not your fault. You’re not a bad Christian or cursed or “not right with God”. 

    He loves you and will be with you to the end of the age. His power is made perfect in weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). 

  • If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land. (2 Chronicles 7:14)

    Today, I took delivery of my long awaited “Prayer Chair”. Ok it’s just a LA-Z BOY recliner but it’s for my little prayer room and I’m very excited about it. 

    The delivery driver texted me last night to say he’d arrive at 7am off the Desert Road from Wellington. Last night, the Lord put it on my heart to pray for the delivery driver as he travelled north up state highway one. So I put up a quick prayer and thought nothing more of it. 

    The truck arrived on time this morning and the driver was shaken. He told me he had just avoided a head-on collision with a backpacker van overtaking a huge truck. His 10 tonne truck locked up as he came around the corner and saw the van on his side of the road. 

    The driver showed me the dash -cam footage on his tablet. He wasn’t exaggerating. It was a terrifying video of the backpacker van sandwiched between two trucks as it overtook on a blind corner. Seconds later, and all three vehicles would have been annihilated. 

    As he stood in my living room assembling the “Prayer Chair” it occurred to me that maybe my little 20 second prayer last night made a difference. Glory to God. I shouldn’t say “maybe” and have certainty that it did. Prayer always makes a difference. And I need to remind myself that my prayer life matters and that God hears and sees from heaven. 

    I hope this little testimony encourages you in your prayer life. Pray, pray,pray. 

    I’d better break in my prayer chair now. There are prayers that need to rise like incense before the throne of God (Psalm 141:2).

  • “No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and (Mammon) money. Matthew 6:24 ESV

    I don’t come from a wealthy family and money was always a struggle. The power bill, the phone bill, groceries and petrol… these were the evening discussions in my household from a young age. Money dominated the agenda in my family. We were scared off it, had limited control of it and were always hoping for a winning Lotto ticket or some crazy windfall. I was always determined that I wasn’t going to live on struggle street.

    But live on ‘struggle street’ I did. With no financial literacy I always found I was yoyo-ing between austerity and excess.

    I had well paying jobs but never any savings and large credit card and student loan debts. Something had to change and I am very grateful to Pastor Joel A’Bell (formerly of Hillsong) who preached a wonderful offering message on our discomfort around money. My heart was burning. I knew that was me and that my finances weren’t before the Lord. I had tried everything else and decided it was time to start following Biblical principles.

    I was a slave to money and it controlled me more than God. I started declaring. Yes, all that Joel Osteen stuff head and not the tail (Deut 28:13) lend and not borrow (Deut 15:6, Prov 22:7) I put the Lord first as my provider and sustainer and not my job or my bank account. I went head-to-head with Mammon in the prayer room to push it down and into the proper place in my life. Money is a tool, God is a God of abundance. I will not lack. I would like to tell you things instantly got better, but they didn’t. Like the widow’s oil, (2 Kings 4:1-7) God requires an empty vessel and the spiritual renovation and renewing of the mind to get the slavery of money off a person is scary(and I believe that’s why most people don’t get there). Money is a spiritual issue first and the battle must be done in prayer and Worship first before there is any tangible result.

    You cannot serve God and (Mammon) money

    I see a lot of Christians taking pride in the fact that they are poor. Poverty and financial stress is awful and it is not of God. It does not make you more humble or less showy or more spiritual to have a lean bank account. I find Christians living in lack talk about money non-stop. It is their God and they are afraid of Mammon. This scarcity mindset is not of God. It dominates your lives and your conversations and keeps you distracted. It’s important to help people get off struggle street but as the Lord once explained to me “sitting on struggle street with other people doesn’t fix the problem-now I just have two people struggling”.

    Make it your ambition to get upwardly mobile and provide for yourself, your family, and your church. Stand on the promises of God in the Bible and declare it over your households. That’s how you loose the grip of money off your lives and put God back at the head where He belongs. And if your heart is burning reading this like mine was, it’s time. Put your letters before the Lord (2 Kings 19:14) and see what He can do for you because He’s just that good.

  • 13 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. 14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. (Matthew 7: 13-14)

    This morning, I’ve been thanking God for the narrow gate. He knows the beginning from the end and sometimes, He’ll take you around a seemingly perilous route to save you from yourself.

    Eight years ago I was working in Sydney. I had my dream job at Ogilvy, as director of the social media team on Microsoft. Until one morning when I went into work and saw an innocuous meeting request in my calendar “WIP” (work in progress). It was in five minutes so I went in with the Digital Director and he promptly delivered the news that Microsoft were going to a small startup agency under their new manager and we had lost the account. Anyone who has worked in agency side knows what that means…. I was being let go. I was the highest paid person on the account so I was the first one to be thrown overboard. The juniors could be allocated to other accounts.

    I was told how to turn in my Surface Pro (ugh horrible tablet but it was Microsoft!) and to please leave via the fire escape to not frighten the horses. I had read enough blog posts of let-go executives to know this was all standard procedure. I took my medicine and within 20 minutes I was off down the fire escape stairs. Dream job over.

    I went and sat in Starbucks at Darling Harbour to decompress and knew it was time to come home to New Zealand. The narrow gate. God was leading and showing me how the life I had chosen to build, was built on sand. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I did it, but banking your future and self-worth on something that can so easily be taken away is not wisdom.

    Fast forward to today and many of my media friends are out of work. Companies are cutting budgets and AI is rapidly taking over much of the work I did in content and digital. People are stressed over mortgages and lack of job security coming into Christmas. This time around, it’s not me on the job heap and boy am I grateful for it.

    Thank God for the narrow gate – the fire escape that leads to life.

  • Jesus said, “If I want him to live until I come again, what’s that to you? You—follow me.” That is how the rumor got out among the brothers that this disciple wouldn’t die. But that is not what Jesus said. He simply said, “If I want him to live until I come again, what’s that to you?” John 21:22 MSG

    Most of the grumblings I hear from people are “other sheep” complaints. People accusing other people of being goats (Matthew: 25 31-46) and not real Christians. Accusing other Christians of being gossips and judgemental. Not interpreting the Bible correctly (I get this one all the time), only turning up to the church for the Christmas dinner or the BBQ. We moan and judge and niggle at the other sheep and the community Jesus has put us in because we want the “other sheep” (and maybe the Shepherd or the pasture) to be different. 

    It’s natural for people rubbing up against each other in community to get frustrated with each other and it’s natural that at times, there will be friction. But where is Jesus in this picture? What sheep has He chosen to place you with? Maybe He’s doing something in you that can’t or won’t be done in another environment. 

    I’ve been to big megachurches like Hillsong Australia and small community gatherings with ten people. It’s always the same: 

    “They weren’t friendly” 

    “They seem a bit weird”

    “They do the hands in the air thing”

    “There was too much Old Testament”

    All of these are sheep and flock issues and not Jesus issues. Jesus calls us to follow him even when we don’t understand the bigger picture and to trust Him to lead us to green pastures and still waters (Psalm 23).

    Sometimes (most of the time) there are valleys and places where things seem desolate and confusing. That’s the trust part. If we are fixed on what the “other sheep” are up to all the time, we start comparing our walk with others when we have no idea what the True Potter is making in His studio. We are all unique creations and you’ll often find the “weird sheep” end up being the most devout and Christ-like in your storm. The “cool sheep” -that everyone wants to be friends with- fade away and often you won’t see them anywhere near a church in the decades ahead.  Cut the other sheep some slack and remember: the call is to follow Jesus not the flock. We are all “weird sheep”.